Just some general stuff...

Our pastor has been preaching on Romans 12:1-2 for the past five weeks, I think (Anita? Janet? Kathie? anyone remember for sure?). It has been very convicting to me about how I need to be transforming my mind. I'm sure if I would work more on spiritual things then the things that make me angry, impatient with my children, unkind to my spouse and just a general jerk all around would resolve themselves - because my focus would be where it's supposed to be. I am supposed to be a servant to my family (and I don't mean that in a "doormat" kind of way) and I often look at it as a chore. My children are a gift and a blessing. I prayed for these children - for nine long years. And I wasn't always pleasant to be around during the wait. I, above all mothers, should be grateful and joyful that they are in my life. Man, there's nothing like having kids to make one me realize how selfish one really is I really am.

I'm working hard on one aspect of my life that needs some attention and I greatly hope and pray that in the new year or shortly into 2007 it will be pretty much resolved - and it is something over which I have a great deal of control.

The past few nights, the big girls and I have been watching videos from when they were born/were babies. And poor Annie. I'm not sure there's anything on her video beyond our Level II ultrasounds! I know there's nothing recent because my sister has my video camera and has for a few months. (Brad just confirmed that my thoughts are correct - nothing for Annie - at all. Bless her punkin heart) Guess I should get it back, huh? Nin told Brad this morning, "Daddy, we need more video to watch" translation: we need another baby. Brad assured her that she has plenty of video. As I watched them I realized if I do this again, that's great. And if not, that's great too. If Annie is It, then the only thing I can really say makes me sad: I never got to see any of my children actually enter the world. I had hoped to watch my section with Annie - or at least have it taped, but we were under so much pressure to get in the OR - NOW (not from her being in distress but because of Paul's schedule) - I didn't get an opportunity to talk to Paul about it.

Clothes beckon to be hung up and folded, envelopes to be addressed for Christmas cards, and various straightening to be done. Time to serve and be grateful for the opportunity to do so. :)