As you can see, I've been scrapping some lately. I think I used Traci's layered sketches on all of those. Please, take all thinking out of it for me! Let me plop my photos on, pick the kits I want to use - plop the pieces on, crop, merge layers and go. :) Right now, that's what I need in my life. Easy, don't have to over-think it, scrapping. All of the layouts will eventually be in my gallery at DST if you want to see credits.
Today we went to the birthday party of a preschool friend. Elizabeth played alone. I watched her on the jungle gym - Mary Ruth, Claire, Ruby, Owen, Irene, Jack, Jonathan, Kylee - they all played together, they chased one another, held hands (the girls did), talked back and forth. Not Elizabeth - she was near them but not with them. They called all the members of our party to sit on the blue bench against the wall - she sat on the very end. We went into the gym and again - solo play. She hung on the fringe watching them on the trampoline and I could tell she wanted to get on but something held her back. They played Duck, Duck, Goose. She sat upright and, again, I could tell - she wanted to be the "Goose" but no one chose her before the game was over and we headed to the party room for cake. She sat at the end of the head table - too shy to sit right next to the birthday party girl but wanting to be near her. I know she's shy and I know what she needs is a friend who will pursue her - draw her out. But it hurts me for her. I wonder how often she's left out because she isn't bold enough to step forward and say, "I'd like to do that" or "Can I play with you?" I know she loves to play *with* other children because she and Katherine play together all the time. And on days at school when she does something with another child, she gets into the car beaming - "I did XYZ with [child's name]" One day it was "I sat with Mary Ruth." One day it was "I played Rescue Rangers with Owen. I was the red truck." One day she did something with Jack and she said, "Mommy, I like Jack [last name]"
I just hope that as she gets older she'll either gain a little more boldness to step forward or she'll have a sweet friend who will draw her out. And maybe, just maybe, some day my life will slow down enough that I can plan one-on-one playdates for her and other little girls. I know I shouldn't care that other children might not like my child -- but that worries me. While I do want her sisters to be her "best friends," I also want her to have friends in her peer group.
Ah, Princess Bride...off to watch! Farm boy, fetch me that pitcher!

7 comments:
Oh Gina. I've never had a shy one so I can't say I know what you're going through, but I imagine, watching other shy kids, that eventually she will find a friend (probably another shy one) and they will be inseparable. I know it must hurt you, but kids are resilient and she has you, Brad and her sisters. She will grow up knowing how loved she is and that can't be bad for anyone!
Becki
Jan. J'bugs
I know how you are feeling. I actually feel that way about H. The thing with H is that she does reach out and seek friendships...but it seems they are one-sided. If she doesn't initiate, no one calls her. It is heart breaking. I am praying and asking the Lord to send her a true friend. I will add E to that list :)
I was shy as a youngster, and as I got older I found friends. Good ones too that cared for and appreciated me for who I was, though I did have my share of getting hurt by some too. It's hard, I know. I see my kids going through it now. I just try to remember my own experiences and know that it won't last.
Awww...I didn't know this about Elizabeth! She is a sweet girl and I know Evie loves her! Gracie was kinda like that when she was little and still is quiet,not wanting to be in the spotlight. Sometimes,I think these personality types have deeper long lasting friendships.
Your scrapbook pages are amazing!
Kim
You know I understand as well as anyone how it is to watch your shy child on the fringes. You've held my hand as I've agonized over this for years. It helped when I finally realized that this bothered me far more than it bothered Julia; I was bringing 34 years worth of my own issues with being in or out to the table and letting them color my feelings, whereas she was just slowly finding her way through new and unfamiliar social situations.
As time has passed, Julia has proven herself to make just the kind of true, deep friendships Kim alludes to above. I just know E will too. Hugs to you as you wait her out... it will be harder on you than on her, I suspect.
Aww, so hard to watch. I was very shy as well, and I still am to some extent. I hope she finds a wonderful friend very soon. :)
I was the same way as E when I was younger. I was always the shy quiet one at school. I always had very strong opinions, and my teachers and other adults always recognized my leadership abilities and helped put me in smaller group situations where I could overcome the shyness with a small group of people at a time. One of my teachers used to always put me with a different group and made me the group leader. I got so frustrated because I would finally get comfortable with a few kids and she would move me to a new group. I thought she didn't like me. She finally told me that she was just trying to get me used to everyone. By the end of that school year, I was sooooo much more comfortable with all the kids. I was never a very visible kid in highschool, but I think that might have been a good thing considering what kinds of girls were visible at my highschool! Better to be the shy good girl than the school skank! :) College really pulled me out of my shell and as you probably know now, I am not the least bit shy! anywho... that is my mini-novel on the situation! :)
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