Working on birth story

I know some of you are waiting to read it; but right now I'm not up to posting it (will get there eventually and will share photos then as well)

So I'm posting this email instead so you'll know what's going on...

It's Sunday evening and we are still in the hospital. Harrison lost over 12% of his weight and was dehydrated (his blood salts are elevated - they are 155 when normal is 135 to 145) so they wouldn't let us go home with him. Not that *I* could go home either. I've been recathed YET AGAIN. They pulled my cath on Saturday, gave me 3 hours to empty my bladder - I didn't so they gave me 3 more hours - I still didn't so they recathed me. This morning, they filled my bladder via the cath and then pulled the cath. I had 3 hours to void all 300ml they put in plus whatever I produced on my own. Didn't happen. I asked for another two hours - Okay, I didn't ask. I said, "I'm not going to let you cath me for another two hours, with all due respect to the resident." An hour into it I realized "it's not happening" - called a friend of mine whose opinion I respect greatly and asked her, "What do you think I should do? I need someone with a clearer head than mine helping us with this decision" She said, "Based on what was relayed to me that your doctor said to you - I think you need to let your body rest. You need to focus on Harrison right now, too. Get the cath. If you get sent home with it - then you do and that's okay we can work with that. You need to focus on your healing and Harrison - let your body rest. You've had a lot of trauma in that area of your body, let it heal." They're still not sure whether or not they nicked my bladder and I'm not sure what it would take for them to know. Paul's wife is out of town and so he has taken the weekend off to be Mr. Mom to their 5 younger kids while she and their oldest are interviewing for scholarships in St. Louis - so I haven't had a chance to talk to *my* doctor since Friday afternoon when I was massively drugged on Phenergan and really, I don't remember anything he said beyond, "Love you, dear" when he left my room that day.

So, we are still here at the hospital and will be until such time as Harrison has shown consistent weight gain and his blood salts are down to within normal limits. I adore the pediatrician taking care of him - he's such a sweet man (Dr. B) - very kind and caring. I don't question his treatment decisions at all. We're supplementing with formula after every breastfeeding because he says this is the safest way to rehydrate him - this lets Harrison dictate what he needs. My milk is coming in; but obviously that's happening a little slower than we'd like thanks to everything I've been through.

Anyway, that's the scoop and I'll try to keep you guys posted.

Thanks for your thoughts, prayers and calls!
Gina