You know, I hadn't even grown accustomed to being pregnant - and the day after another faint, but stronger, positive test I started bleeding. Because my two tests were so faint, it makes me wonder if I was ever pregnant. Could I have read the tests incorrectly? My husband and mother both looked at the 2nd test and assured me I wasn't blind - that it was positive. But still, I wonder. Was it all in my mind?
I thought I was okay with this, but as today has gone on, I've realized I'm not. I went into the clinic to have a beta and progesterone drawn, I walked into the scheduler's office to cancel my April 25 new OB appointment. She said, "Do we need to reschedule it?" I said, "No" and hope I didn't sound like I was biting her head off.
So, maybe we'll try again -- maybe we won't. I thought I was okay with this, but as I sobbed through dinner I realized, I'm not. I really wanted this baby more than I realized I did.
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I was just so sorry to read this post. I too have been there.
I was just so sorry to read this post. I too have been there.
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